Why do people follow us on our blogs? Sincere desire? Trolling? Why do we freely share our thoughts? Companionship as artists? No man is an island after all.
Should we write and publish before posting? Copyright our work before sharing? Should we be concerned about our work so rashly?
Sometimes I consider this journey narcissistic. Is this what others think? I realize it isn’t all about me. Others matter. Often they face bigger trials than I ever fought. Still, I realize self-care is important. How else can we help others?
So, this morning I dwell in deep thought and wonderment. I enjoy blogging, reading and discovering old and new talent. I probably won’t quit but some days I feel an urge to go solo. I guess I get giddy when I feel I wrote a piece I am proud of but soon find what I like, others don’t necessarily connect. This could be what brought on these thoughts as 2017 approaches.
Each New Year I develop a theme and slogan for my life. I have accomplished this for four years. This will be my fifth. Previous years statements were something along the lines “Sing a new song” often with a particular twist. Last year it was a search of my dark self, sharing thoughts, often depressing.
This year I am considering the adoption of “Warriors, Heroes and me”. How can I/we find within ourselves a warrior and hero? Do I/we remain outside looking for rescue or forge towards helping others? Could heroism be as simple as finding daily joy and beauty to share with others?
I look forward to the New Year. My mood has morphed into positivity, culminating at Christmas. No apprehension exists. Then, like other years, once the sparkle and bling disappear, I can’t help but wonder will this “new” mood fly away again?
Life is worth figuring out and making decisions important. So this is where I sit, between the merry mood of the holidays and the bleak winter months. With this new year, I wonder, will I find me as a phoenix, a butterfly or remain in my still hardened shell?
So what will the New Year bring for you? What decisions will you make?
As for now, I think I will post less, be more disciplined and practice patience. After all warriors must learn self-control and heroes conquer all.
Always a fellow blogger, J
(We shall see how long a potential new me lasts. I have not shared all past dark posts so a few could pop up occasionally. Just a warning: Beware!)