This morning

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Santa Fe July 2017

Fog in the mountains -this morning
were you thinking of me?
I wanted to let you know -this morning
burned away the fear
of never seeing you again.  This morning
holds a promise and cloaks my tears.

The softness of the silk
wraps my face
and leaves a stain on my hands -this morning.

On reading poetry.

Love the poem that seduces, draws you in with an immediate connection. Stop! 

A poem to stop and pause. Words that breathe life and suck marrow. To turn, burn the other side, the unseen now bright and glaring. 

You swore secrecy, temptation by a flicker. A lingering finger traces backward and stops midstream. This passion stored ignites once more. 

Browse and ponder the others. At first glance they bore and bother but dig deeper. Solve the riddle. 

Roots (questions)

A feminist as Virginia Woolf?
I should say
my concern is not
as you think I should be
rather, I climb the hayloft to dream
passing cautiously
the tangled bull cow
desperate to be free.
A Room of One’s Own
she declares
I hardly agree
despite this venturous
solitude of heart
only room for words
fictive and unconventional.
So which am I?
I suppose
I garner to know
more than my acquaintence cares
each walking briskly -past
as an autumn leaf
we turn to be and become.

Nothing inside
a corpse of loss
struggling to name
this nothing
-frayed edges and needle pricks and clawed thoughts

you left me
-bleeding
afraid of the dark
you know -knew
you would leave me this way

ive seen it all before
corpses with beating hearts
left to bleed out -alone.

Some thoughts before…

Heading to Santa Fe
again
to study -poetry
in the dirt, sky and man

reading V. Woolf -Atwood
wondering if anything lies within me
to surrender
in words
this extracted life in 2-dimensions

just
yes -still perplexed
by fear
fear of living
sidelined -choking

and Leonard
her husband calls her critics
less sophisticated
-hmmph, he shuts a voice down
while she belittles
Rossetti, Mansfield & Browning.

while she may have
a place to complain
-be irritated
her critics stand shoulder-to-shoulder
on their ladders

Oh, yes!
today is another day
to work
just -let it all out
this quietedvoice
is stronger than all others.

Happy to spend July 28-August 5 with Gina Franco and a class of peers looking to refine who we are as writers.

Just -yes just another day to be.