Learned something new today. Moments. Happen.
I have loved but one man. For thirty years. This experience leaves me rather naive about men and love and how the world works. I have never smoked, taken drugs and my first taste of alcohol was to drown pain at 48. It is three years later and my penchant for rum, brandy and vodka is growing. One feels freer under a bottle’s influence of twisted words and greedy sex. And then he arrived. Hungrier than me. A stinger, a fighter, a god. And he took to my attention, selling wares of satisfaction, provided i comply.
Where am i in all of this? Living in a dream that strikes fear in my heart. A complying pisces who strikes the bait, knowing full well the line can be reeled in, one netted and unable to free herself from captivity!
No! Swim faster…nothing turns out right… miscommunication, ha! amongst writers? it happens and is happening… can you not see my heart… veiled by modesty…
can you not hear my desire… to be friends? ha! amongst writers… where ego takes over
and all sadness aside… my loneliness is welcome… simply wanted, needed, desired a muse…
and you needed, wanted, desired
more than i can, could, will give.
and i will act like i am not hurt but i am hurt. terribly!
I notice people of varying races like to point out faults of other races… and religion and sexes. So in my INFP Facebook group i wrote:
Equal disgust to any person, regardless of race, religion, sex, etc., right? Because its great people talk … so next time you defend another religion, race, sex, etc., for doing same, remember your outrage at this. Next post could easily be someone you couldnt believe would be so barbaric, like MS13 gang or muslim jihadist or fill-in-the blank with murderers, rapists, which knows no bounds… try speaking out against them as well. And how about defending the children sold and appearing in US court with no parent showing up to claim them. Defend the girls in the middle east stoned to death… but still breathing. Defend the white christian south africans being massacred. Or even black christians in nigeria. You get the point.
Have heard nothing yet. No feedback… waiting.
My other point of view… on my personal page.
Hate knows no bounds. I find it particularly aggravating when we point out a race, religion or sex committing evil against another. It is the mind, heart and soul that is damaged that is capable of committing atrocity more than the skin color. Some people commit crimes, who adhere to a particular worldview, based on ethnicity or religion and even sex, but they are twisting what is normally a peaceful existence. At least i hope so. So…. when someone points out a “white” “brown” or “black” person, which really is varying degrees and shades, let us remember we all have light in our background. All humanity begins with light. Let us not twist humanity into evil and box us into stereotypical groups. All people are capable of committing evil. All.
meant to harm
into unpleasant thoughts
meek smiles forced
stretched out, about
and around me,
and wrapped you
as no one ever
your love stung
of the fittest
Join Cee this Monday, July 9, 2018 and share your world…
What would you name the autobiography of your life?
Meet Me Outside
Which do you prefer sweet, salty or buttery?
What’s the finest education?
Although experience is the greatest teacher, it is often harsh. Reading living books as per the Charlotte Mason philosophy. One can survive reading a book.
What did you appreciate or what made you smile this past week?
Spent yesterday with a friend at the Institute of Contemporary Art/Boston, showed off my house and met her sister and brother-in-law.
a happiness portal
she walked right in
no questions asked
and her smile
spread across his hand
no lying converges
abandoned by family
he came along
willing, she loved
yielding, she wondered
anguish reaching years
his counsel tearing
desert hearts apart
tattered dress seams
left wholly unclean
brutally honest mind
history resists mending
living among rubble
As always, you can contact me day or night if you are suicidal @ email@example.com
— Read more on jamesedgarskye.com/2018/07/06/suicide-hotline/
watching you walk away
got in each other’s way
did i damage
first with my confession
an honest answer
brushed against your skin
acid reflux your only sin