Tag: anxiety

piano man.

circus mind filled with sorrow nothing entertains rivers of red threatening beat the final score a song for every life situation big band, rock… classical, soul no limits to a melodies roll like a cloud sound changes to fit the mood and i ask -you to dance, along follow my steps the black and white…

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personal musings unleashed.

Learned something new today. Moments. Happen. I have loved but one man. For thirty years. This experience leaves me rather naive about men and love and how the world works. I have never smoked, taken drugs and my first taste of alcohol was to drown pain at 48. It is three years later and my…

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pieces of me.

no lying converges abandoned by family he came along willing, she loved yielding, she wondered anguish reaching years his counsel tearing desert hearts apart tattered dress seams left wholly unclean brutally honest mind history resists mending living among rubble April/May 2018

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personal musings unleashed.

thoughts from mid June 2018 As of late i have been thinking. Endlessly the wheel rotates and nothing new is generated. My therapist called it rumination. And typically rumination has led to increased anxiety. My anxiety is spiked. Last weekend i ran to the White Mountains. Last night i ran to Prospect Hill, to watch…

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A short story I wrote – enjoy! (Reblog.)

‘’Have you ever heard of smiley face killers?’’ my friend asked. ‘’Smiley face killers?’’ I asked. ‘’College-aged men who end up dead in the water, with signs of torture? Is this where your journalistic investigations have taken you now, Alice?’’ A short story I wrote – enjoy! — Read on existentialtableau.wordpress.com/2018/06/27/a-short-story-i-wrote-enjoy/

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personal musings unleashed

who is responsible? for me… and there is no blame to lay… early the birds chirp. have you ever heard a grumpy bird? not me… and there is no shame today… all ready to plan my day… all these baby steps, these horrid thoughts shed… (woah, guilt, back off, this is space to spread cheer……

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retreat.

this whispered touch middle finger caress splits open -borders a wounded heart to bleed love and flow your way dreamt you held these broken bones crushed dream -hoarder i offered you my orange creamsicle spiked with fear perched atop you slink below covered silk -corridor i whisk away… you needed more rain to pour chasing…

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personal musings unleashed

We really do not know each other, do we? Years were spent cultivating all these hateful thoughts. Up until today, all that is wrong with life, seemed to be my fault. I easily accepted blame and never fought the day my mom banished me from their life. I was not the daughter she wanted and…

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