Posted in Musings, Photography, Poetry

FOTD—Planting Seeds

A few days back, these grape hyacinths were at their peak. As they stood attention, bees collected pollen while the days faded. All holding a promise, that tomorrow, faith rests on fate.

I believe in today. And see the grand scheme rise up before me. I put my hand to the soil and till the earth. Spread my pocketful of seeds with a smile. And water the dirt with tears knowing this too will pass.

fading memories
grandma at the kitchen stove
stirring her pickles

hidden kittens purr
i feeding the baby calf
bowl full of cow’s milk

My Promise Garden arose from my grandfather’s suicide. The vision grows wherever I land. I have held this dream in my heart for 32 years. It only vanishes with my last breath.

Cee’s FOTD

(I have written about My Promise Garden, my brother, and my personal struggles before. They reside, buried in this ever evolving blog’s pages. Maybe those words will bud and blossom too. If I ever find the energy, I may edit my raw words into something more elegant. Until then, I rest in my meager efforts to get across how precious time is. Thank you friends.)

Posted in Poetry

Arrangements

If i were to talk 
because i held a certain trust
that words left on ledges
wouldn’t be pushed
shoved or trampled

what would your answer be?



The flowers carefully cut
each slice affords another view
each decidedly new
to the possibility of desert juice

so let’s drink up under the star’s canopy.



And if the end starts
another conversation
would you stay past midnight
under the blanket tent

I pitched while cleaning house?



Dressed in bleak
we stand and speak
of autumn nights that ramble
while holding hands

and rehearse our final vows.

Posted in Musings, Photography, Poetry

Wabi-Sabi

I updated my site again. The second time this year. These new beginnings are another chance at survival. Embracing what I will become while accepting the current condition of my heart and soul.

I gently ease into this new idea of me. Playing around with logistics until it feels like home.

This is where I am. Wabi-Sabi. An imperfect ideal of being me.

Posted in Photography, Poetry

Fleeting Floats Beyond

Is it Spring that welcomes you?
Or Summer heated blues?

Nothing stays long enough to know. —Mary Szybist, Incarnadine: Poems

My head aches with worried words
the squirrels chattering all day long
it is “nuts” i say
to play this way
so i venture on.

And in the view
I capture two
spaces, far and near
my heart feels lost
the cost too much
and time wonders why.

Is it Spring
that welcomes us
dancing in the street
where no one drives
the coast is clear
your feet travel far.

I loved you once
and tried again
to be brushed aside
rushing for the sun
where all darkness hides.

I forgot green runs too
so long they last
the brown songs past.

We once walked single file
holding beaded pearls
and slowly

I let go the rope.
Posted in Musings, Photography, Poetry, Soul Journal

Abandoned Voices

Abandoned Voices #1
To taste the air.
To know the wind.
To watch a bird
take flight
and welcome home
freedom’s fight.

To touch the ground’s
growing heartbeat.
To know our day’s bleak
as we are weak
to ever soar above.

If we understood each waking hour, what sound emerges for us? What lays at the edge of every step we take? Is freedom ever found?

The glimmer of hope rings true until the descent brings one closer. So how does one revive the home fire when all the logs are burnt?

I hope to continue Abandoned Voices through a series of photos that capture thoughts and answer questions. This being the first photograph, edited.