This post was started January 13, 2012 with no real intention of finishing. Until now. I searched for a verse to show me what the Lord is doing in my life at present and this sums it up perfectly…
“The Lord says, ‘I will guide you along the best pathway for your life. I will advise you and watch over you’.” Psalm 32:8
Okay, so in a few weeks the Lord took me from this:
The words were bubbling up from the pit of her stomach and the depths of her mind. Even the blood flowed with twists and turns the best writer could not have imagined. Yet her fingers resisted letting anything escape. Like Hamlet, Romeo and Juliet and scores of others, she took the path of least resistance. She made a singular pact that nobody would ever read her written word.
She placed the pages into the shredder. To make it even more permanent, she placed the shredded scraps into the fireplace and watched the flames flare. Every thought was reduced to ash. The ash disappeared too as the wind carried her images to the four corners of the earth. Nothing remained.
I do not believe for one minute, that someone who destroys anything they have created, really wished that to be. When you are writing, do you take that paper and crumble it, shred it and other wise just shew it aside, to call it quits when you feel the utter madness of trying to communicate an idea? Do you really want to destroy all your thoughts? Not every word we think is worth repeating or uttering out loud, but every thought can be caught captive and examined. I admit I have never published anything. I have only a few readers of my blog, yet I keep plugging along. Why? Do I really have something to say that has not already been said? Am I just repeating what millions have thought, said and acted upon plenty of times.
I have books on my shelves to read such as Writing the Short Story by Bickham, Dynamic Characters by Kress, Creating Characters by Swain, Creating Short Fiction by Damon Knight, on and on the list could go, but have they helped? I cannot say definately, but I do know that I still wrestle with the thoughts that rush through me, beating against my hands, demanding that I release them. Am I a writer? Is it a mistake to think I can write? or should write? Should I just put a cabosh on this whole notion rumbling through my head?
“God has given each of you a gift from his great variety of spiritual gifts. Use them well to serve one another… Do it with all the strength and energy God supplies. Then everything you do will bring glory to God through Jesus Christ.” 1 Peter 4:10, 11
So, I will continue pressing on. I absolutely feel inadequate, showcasing my thoughts in such a public way, but I will trust the Lord knows what He is doing. I love feedback and would relish every word spoken back to me in the comments. If there is something you were wondering, had a scripture verse you would like to see posted and discussed, would like to guest post, please let me know.
One final thought. I found a blog about listening and it can be found here http://www.listen.org/Blog. A quote from the founder of the International Listening Association had this to say about listening…”The most basic of all human needs is the need to understand and be understood. The best way to understand people is to listen to them.”— Ralph Nichols. So why write? So you can be heard! Taking it a step further, every writer should read and make themselves available to outside influences. Take notes, visible and invisible. Make pages full of them. Know that by being a student, by listening, reading and writing, the TRUTH will eventually be released. The Lord said if we do not speak, the stones will. So I hope I am not put to shame by having a rock say what I could be saying and need to be saying. Jeannelizabeth©